Finding the Motivation to do what needs done…

I thought this year I would get a lot accomplished and I have gotten some stuff done and completed. But living in 2020 has been rough. Right after the first of the year everyone around the world had to stay home, people lost jobs, people had difficulty getting jobs. Schooling changed for all kids and schedules became chaotic to say the least. Everyone thought things would go back to normal and after awhile things loosened up a bit but you were still required to wear a mask with inside a public place. I can fully understand that and I do, I also wear it properly and not what you call dick-nosing it. Where you have your mouth covered but your nose out, like wearing your underwear but your privates are still out. Or better yet also under your chin or as a headband too. I would rather see you not wear one at all if you are not going to wear it correctly because what benefit does it do you if you have it on wrong.

My schedule around the house become fun, grandkids have to get up and start schoolwork from home and for a bit we had my hubby’s sons here Monday-Wednesday and I had to help teach the youngest as he was having issues with reading and understanding his assignments. The oldest rushes through his work and gets bad grades and then has to redo stuff.

I was getting agitated as I was having to play teacher all the time, and hubby wasn’t really helping, then I played taxi driver to him and my daughter once she started working. Plus I am the laundress, cook, and making sure that they change their clothes, brush their teeth and clean up after themselves. They did have chores and that helped but now less people here but still big messes. The adults around here can be lazy at times. Like they all like to go to their own spaces and hibernate but when it is feeding time they can make a huge mess in kitchen and leave it and sometimes leave the mess in their area but I see it and it drives me NUTS! Some days I wish I lived alone, clean up my own messes. Stuff wouldn’t get dirty as easy.

I have finally FINALLY gotten my bedroom to where I want it, almost. I need to buy two more 4 block shelves and take the current 8 shelve to the basement to use for kids containers of toys and games. Store a few more things under my bed and rearrange my one desk with shelve on it. Thinking of grabbing my desk from downstairs and bringing it upstairs again. It is only gathering dust in the basement and I can use it to study my MUA course and Skincare course at the desk and do my assignments there or turn around to the pull out shelves and do it there as well. I just need a new chair as I ruined mine when COV-19 first came around and used something from my daughters work that was really strong medical sanitation on my chair and it has peeled the top layer of the chair off my chair and basically sheds little black pieces all over the floor.

Off to check laundry, maybe grab my desk from the basement, I might need sons help grabbing some pieces or I might move some stuff first so I have room to put it together in here first. Yep, move stuff to have room in here for it. I got a feeling my dog will be trying to lay under it when I sit there, or on my bed. She is always right there with me. Love her but I have stepped on here or tripped over her more times than I can count and she is a decent size dog. But I love the furry little mutt, and yes she is a mutt. She has a lot of different breeds in her and everyone thinks she is a Labrador but she isn’t.

(Although the above picture is one from a few years ago, it is what I feel like my year has been like. Cracked and shattered in places but there is still love there. Good and bad happened this year but had family to keep me sane at times and drive me insane at times. But they are always there when you need to them to be. I have had my dark days when I don’t want to do anything but be left alone and other days I want out of the house and to feel the fresh air and not be confined to four walls. The parks this year have been my safe haven.)